Another day, another juice. I am still craving solid food. It's not so much about being hungry (after last night I was worried I might never have an appetite again). It's more about missing eating, missing food. Some disturbing aspects of my emotional relationship with solid food are coming to light. I just want to munch on things all the time--I theorize that this is because I like having my hands busy, and as the only activity I do at work is scrolling the mouse up and down, they are in desperate need of something to do.
The hardest part was today at lunch, where I had this concoction to drink, and my coworkers were microwaving pasta, soup, and decadent leftovers. Or even just eating a sandwich. I think I might have been eyeing the Coffee Mate creamer with a little too much lust. But I resolutely turned to my brownish looking beverage, and bravely took a sip. It wasn't bad. Not great, but not bad. Certainly a vast improvement over last night's wretched mix. I made today's selection from tomatoes, carrots, celery, spinach, and cucumbers. The celery and cucumber helped a lot, I think, with making it taste less earthy and dirt-like and more like cold tomato bisque. At any rate, it tastes better than it looks.
Tonight I am going to try the dreaded kale drink again, if only because I have a bunch of beets and kale in my fridge that need to be used. But I am going to switch up the ratios a little bit and add some citrus, and hope that it will ultimately taste better--or at least be drinkable.
For the record, here are the foods I have been fantasizing about all morning: goat cheese pizza, bacon cheese fries, portabello sandwich, caprese salad, steak with blue cheese, white cheddar cheetos, and milky, iced coffee. I console myself that a) after eight more days I will be free to eat these things again and b) after eight more days maybe I won't want them anymore.
(Who am I kidding. I will always want the steak and blue cheese.)
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| My lunch for today. |
Tonight I am going to try the dreaded kale drink again, if only because I have a bunch of beets and kale in my fridge that need to be used. But I am going to switch up the ratios a little bit and add some citrus, and hope that it will ultimately taste better--or at least be drinkable.
For the record, here are the foods I have been fantasizing about all morning: goat cheese pizza, bacon cheese fries, portabello sandwich, caprese salad, steak with blue cheese, white cheddar cheetos, and milky, iced coffee. I console myself that a) after eight more days I will be free to eat these things again and b) after eight more days maybe I won't want them anymore.
(Who am I kidding. I will always want the steak and blue cheese.)
This is really interesting, Katie. I look forward to seeing how it continues. I did a cleanse once when I was working at Tate. I drank this terrible concoction and was allowed 2 almonds (2!) every 4 hours. I did feel more re-set after it all though. I hope the same for you...and that you won't crave the junk as much. That is an awesome goal.
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